Updated: May 24
This trial that you are going through seems to be the toughest. It only seems that way because your faith is enduring the test of time. Congratulations for not giving up! Besides, you've come too far to give up now.
"....the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all (Ecclesiastes 9:11). For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us (Romans 8:18).
What God has in store for the believer when Jesus comes back to reign, can not be compared to this life, which is full of uncertainties. Live life in obedience to God, because the only sure thing is a life lived for God.
You've Come This Far By Faith. Don't Give Up! Keep Enduring!